Billie Lourd and Carrie Fisher.
(Photo by Getty)Billie Lourd admitted she felt ‘sad but grateful’ as she marked her mother’s eighth birthday Carrie Fisher death.
Opening up about her complicated feelings about the somber occasion, Lourd shared a moving tribute alongside an image of herself with her late mother. via Instagram on Friday December 27.
“It’s been 8 years since my mother died. As my son would say, “that’s a lot!” » I still dread this day. I spend so much time leading up to this thinking about how horrible I’m going to feel,” Lourd, 32, wrote, “and my fear is usually right. I woke up this morning with a dark cloud over me. But when my children woke up, the dark cloud dissipated and was replaced by bright sunshine. His death anniversary is like an emotional tropical storm. It rains much of the day, but between storms the light is more beautiful than any day without storm clouds. There is no rainbow without rain. »
The actress then used a simile to explain how it felt to deal with her feelings of grief.
Amy Sussman/Getty Images; Jim Spellman/WireImage Billie Lourd pays tribute to her late mother, Carrie Fisher, seven years after the Star Wars actress’ death. “It’s been 7 years since my mother passed away (but who’s counting?? Me, I guess?),” Lourd, 31, began his caption via Instagram on Wednesday, December 27. “Every anniversary brings a different iteration […]
“There is a great Anne Lamot I quote: “Grief is like having a broken leg that never heals perfectly – it still hurts when it’s cold, but you learn to dance by limping.” And that perfectly describes how I feel today,” Lourd wrote.
She continued: “Yes, the grieving time is cold and yes, I may limp, but I absolutely dance my way through life (oops, did I mention nasty?). And I’m actually a better dancer with my limp. My grief has allowed me to more deeply appreciate all of life’s little moments. So today I am grieving (grieving but grateful). I look at the magic of my son and my daughter and I know that she is part of that magic. And I feel all things. The sorrow. Joy. Desire. Magic. The void. Fullness. And all of this coexists in a profound way. I send my love to everyone who needs it. ❤️”
Since Fisher’s death, Billie has welcomed son Kingston, 4, and daughter Jackson Joanne, 2, with her partner Austen Rydell.
Fisherman died in December 2016 at the age of 60 after suffering a heart attack. A day later, Fisher’s mother, Debbie Reynoldsdied of a stroke at the age of 84.
In the years following the deaths of his mother and grandmother, Lourd often spoke of his loss.
Last year, Heavy commemorated the anniversary of his mother’s death with another poignant message.
“It’s been 7 years since my mother passed away (but who’s counting?? Me, I guess?),” Lourd wrote in December 2023. “Each anniversary brings a different iteration of my grief. Some make me angry, some make me cry all day, some make me feel dissociated and empty, some make me feel nothing, some make me feel guilty for feeling nothing, and some make me feel all of these things at the same time. times. »
Billie Lourd has opened up about how working on Gia Coppola’s new film The Last Showgirl brought her closer to her late mother Carrie Fisher and grandmother Debbie Reynolds. Taking the stage alongside costars Pamela Anderson and Jamie Lee Curtis at the premiere of The Last Showgirl at the 2024 Toronto International Film Festival on Friday, September 20. […]
THE Scream Queens an elder also recognized in December 2021 that dealing with grief is “never simple”.
“I am in a different stages of grief every moment of every day,” Lourd wrote via Instagram. “My grief is a multi-course meal with many complicated ingredients. An appetizer of bargaining followed by an aperitif of anger with a depressive side, an acceptance for the starter and of course a small refusal for the dessert.
She continued: “And that’s how grieving should be – all at once – in fact, there is no ‘should’ in grieving – grieving is just what it is for you and that’s how it “should be”.
